Dayyy 14 Of My #40dayyy #addictionrecovery2014 Challenge With A Focus On Drugs, Depression And People In My Life With Addictions. As Far As I Can Tell Everyone Has An #addiction Of Some Kind, A Buffer, A Coping Mechanism, A Habit. We All Have Them. Some Deeper Than Others, Different Levels Of Functionality. Same As We All Have Pain And Traumas. And Again, #sobriety Is Sobering. Waking Up In A Life You Feel Out Of Touch With. Hard Work. I Am Awakening And Some Parts Of My Life Are Moving Me To Tears With The Sweetness, The Perfection, The Power… And Other Parts Are Astonishing, Startling And Upsetting. But I Can And I Will Accept All Parts, Change What I Can, Let Go Of What Does Not Resonate And Give Thanks For It All. There Is So Much I Am Grateful For In My Life. I Am Blessed To Have Been Kept So Safe And On This Earth So I Could Be On The Other Side Of Addiction And Know There Is A Life Possible Beyond Suffering And Coping Silently. xxx

Dayyy 14 Of My #40dayyy #addictionrecovery2014 Challenge With A Focus On Drugs, Depression And People In My Life With Addictions. As Far As I Can Tell Everyone Has An #addiction Of Some Kind, A Buffer, A Coping Mechanism, A Habit. We All Have Them. Some Deeper Than Others, Different Levels Of Functionality. Same As We All Have Pain And Traumas. And Again, #sobriety Is Sobering. Waking Up In A Life You Feel Out Of Touch With. Hard Work. I Am Awakening And Some Parts Of My Life Are Moving Me To Tears With The Sweetness, The Perfection, The Power… And Other Parts Are Astonishing, Startling And Upsetting. But I Can And I Will Accept All Parts, Change What I Can, Let Go Of What Does Not Resonate And Give Thanks For It All. There Is So Much I Am Grateful For In My Life. I Am Blessed To Have Been Kept So Safe And On This Earth So I Could Be On The Other Side Of Addiction And Know There Is A Life Possible Beyond Suffering And Coping Silently. xxx

Dayyy 13 Of My #40dayyy #addictionrecovery2014 Challenge… Today Is Truly The First Day Where Using Has Felt Overwhelming. Addicts & Avoiders All Around, Smoke Billowing From Doorways, People Not Saying What They Truly Mean, Pretense, Facade And Trauma All Around… Sighhh It Makes It Hard! But I Am Focused On #sobriety I Will Not Waver. I Am Blessed To Have This Focus, So Much Support And Genuine People Close To Me I Can Go To. I Appreciate Very Much Those Who Have Reached Out To Me, To Discuss Their Own #depression Or #addiction I Feel Blessed And Motivated Further. To Those Struggling, Trying Or Wondering: Love & Light To You xxx

Dayyy 13 Of My #40dayyy #addictionrecovery2014 Challenge… Today Is Truly The First Day Where Using Has Felt Overwhelming. Addicts & Avoiders All Around, Smoke Billowing From Doorways, People Not Saying What They Truly Mean, Pretense, Facade And Trauma All Around… Sighhh It Makes It Hard! But I Am Focused On #sobriety I Will Not Waver. I Am Blessed To Have This Focus, So Much Support And Genuine People Close To Me I Can Go To. I Appreciate Very Much Those Who Have Reached Out To Me, To Discuss Their Own #depression Or #addiction I Feel Blessed And Motivated Further. To Those Struggling, Trying Or Wondering: Love & Light To You xxx

It’s Dayyy 12 Of My #40dayyy Challenge In #addictionrecovery2014 And My Chosen #sobriety Is Going Sweet Enough. Being A Heavy Pot Smoker For Many Years Has Meant Dreaming (During Sleeping) Has Been Incredibly Rare. Now! Oh My Goodness! Adjusting To Dreaming Is Tricky. I’m Disturbed By Dreams, Good And Bad Ones, Adjusting To It And Luckily Have Gentle Arms To Snuggle Into Upon Waking. The Sub Conscious Needs Space, This Freedom To Play And Act Out, I’m Slightly Exhausted In The Mornings, These Long Adventures Mean I Haven’t Felt Very Rested But I Know It’s A Transition. My Focus Has Been On Weed But I’ve Pretty Much Stopped Drinking Too, The Number Of Alcoholics And Alcohol Dependents In My Industry Is Telling. #depression Is A Big One Too. I Am Grateful To Be Focused xxx

It’s Dayyy 12 Of My #40dayyy Challenge In #addictionrecovery2014 And My Chosen #sobriety Is Going Sweet Enough. Being A Heavy Pot Smoker For Many Years Has Meant Dreaming (During Sleeping) Has Been Incredibly Rare. Now! Oh My Goodness! Adjusting To Dreaming Is Tricky. I’m Disturbed By Dreams, Good And Bad Ones, Adjusting To It And Luckily Have Gentle Arms To Snuggle Into Upon Waking. The Sub Conscious Needs Space, This Freedom To Play And Act Out, I’m Slightly Exhausted In The Mornings, These Long Adventures Mean I Haven’t Felt Very Rested But I Know It’s A Transition. My Focus Has Been On Weed But I’ve Pretty Much Stopped Drinking Too, The Number Of Alcoholics And Alcohol Dependents In My Industry Is Telling. #depression Is A Big One Too. I Am Grateful To Be Focused xxx